Emotional Day

Kiera is keeping me busy, and darn it was hot out today. I took her in the backyard to wear her out a little (which worked), but I think the heat wore me out first. She came back in and slept for 2 hours or so. Voila!

Anyway, I had her IEP today to transition her from Early Intervention Therapies to getting her services through the public schools homebound system. It was kind of funny, and probably brought on by some early morning false equipment alarms and ventilator switch out at 4am which left me not well rested; but when the lady running the meeting explained that we would be planning the "transition for Kiera to APS now that she will be 3yrs old...blah, blah, blah" I started crying. Everyone in the room, except Kiera's current EI speech therapist was looking at me stumped as to what she might have said to make me cry. Anyway, it just kind of hit me that my BABY couldn't be going "to school" even if she really isn't "going" anywhere. Sitting there in an IEP, a very familiar setting for me as a teacher and step parent, was so unreal.

So my conclusion is that if I can't hear the word "transition" in reference to Kiera without crying, that I am pretty much going to be useless for all recitals, concerts, first communion, graduations, wedding, etc from here on out. She's going to need to learn to hand her mother a box of Kleenex before any milestones...like tying her shoe, for instance. Oh...and God help any kid who ever bullies her or makes her cry.

I'm a mess.

Very Cute Observation during Blue's Clues

So I have had one crazy busy week, and I am wiped out. Plus, we have reached the one month a year that every nurse on the planet apparently takes a vacation. :) So...there will be little relief this month. I just finished Kiera's noonish feeding and meds, her bath, and her trach care in addition to correcting some payroll issues this morning and working on annual awards for my Mary Kay unit. It is now 2PM, and I am in my pajamas. Unfortunately, I will be unable to shower till Kiera takes a nap (which is unlikely lately) or someone comes over to watch her while I shower (also unlikely). Of course, that UPS guy is looking pretty cute lately... Maybe I should see what brown could do for me... and have him come in and watch her so I can shower, of course. Get your mind out of the gutter.

Anyway, here is the cutest thing that Kiera did today and yesterday. I DVR all the Blue's Clues episodes so she can watch them at will and a "new" one (for us since it's no longer on air) recorded yesterday. It is the Anatomy episode. Kiera is so tickled by it. The episode starts with Steve listening to Blue's heartbeat with a stethoscope, and Kiera can't contain her enthusiasm. She LOVES Dr. Glasser's stethoscope, and she gets so excited to see it on Blue's Clues. Her body language just screams, "Oh my gosh, Mommy, do you see that? I know what it is! That's just like when I go to the doctor!" (etc, etc) Interestingly, the Jobs episode that has a doctor skit does not amuse her as much. Every time she see's that stethoscope, though, she is ecstatic.

That's about all for now. Kiera's feeding pump is having a panic attack and calling for me, so I'll need to adieu.